By Wyatt Massey
This article was originally published by America magazine on January 31st, 2017. Excerpt reprinted with permission.
When the church rejected him because of his past, Jaime Torres kept talking about Jesus. When he was forced to hold group meetings in parks and parking lots because the church would not let him inside, Mr. Torres kept talking about Jesus. When church members accused him of selling drugs or plotting something sinister, he ignored the voices and kept talking about Jesus.
Now Mr. Torres’s relentless years of ministering to gang members, drug addicts and the incarcerated is beginning to be recognized and a national Catholic society is funding the expansion of his program, Fuerza Transformadora, to parishes across the country. The 44-year-old continues to challenge priests in Arkansas and throughout the country with his dedication to live out the Gospel and to the people he brings to church.
“I still call them the ‘invisibles’ because nobody wants to see them,” Mr. Torres said of those he helps. “At first, I heard [churches] don’t want to deal with gang members, alcoholics or drug addicts. But that’s when I told them, you know what, the people you don’t want to see in church, that’s the people I’m going to bring to church.”
Mr. Torres, the associate director of faith formation in the Diocese of Little Rock, Ark., began sharing the Gospel with others after his own faith transformation. Before that, he thought church was only for good people, something he was not.
At age 14, he and his family immigrated to Los Angeles from Mexico City. Just after starting junior high, the teenage Mr. Torres was confronted by a group of people because of the way he looked. He dressed like the rappers he saw on MTV. They thought he dressed like a gang member, potentially a rival gang member. A man on the street accused him repeatedly, before pinning him to the ground, Mr. Torres remembered.
“He got an ice pick from his pocket and he put it on my neck. He told me, ‘You want to do die?’ And I just stayed quiet. I didn’t say anything, so they started laughing and they left.”
Scared, Mr. Torres approached a rival gang about membership and protection. When means of entry included getting jumped by 50 members, he declined and started his own group. The gang—“Mexicans Causing Panic”—grew slowly until one of its members killed the man who had threatened Mr. Torres with the icepick. The gang’s membership jumped from single digits to over 80 people. He was selling marijuana and cocaine, but his life began to unravel, he said.
“My life, it was a mess,” he said. “I got into a fight with some gang members.… One of my friends, he got shot.”
His parents left Los Angeles for Arkansas in 1995, hoping the move would protect Mr. Torres, but the plan backfired. There were no gangs in the state, he said, so he started one here. He was arrested in 2000 for fighting a police officer in Springdale, Ark.
His mother came to get him from jail. Seeing her tears reduced Mr. Torres to his lowest point. He had to face the pain he was inflicting on others.
“My parents, they were always [there] for me,” he said. “When I got home, I went into my room and that’s when I felt like I wanted to go back to California and get shot, get killed, because I didn’t want to live anymore.”
But something sparked his memory. A stranger on the street had once told him to talk to Jesus in times of struggle. Mr. Torres did not believe the man at the time, but decided to give prayer a chance.
He began talking to Jesus.
“I told him, you know what Jesus, I don’t know how to pray, I don’t know how to talk to you but I need help…. I cannot live with drugs anymore. Then, I started feeling my tears.... I didn’t want to cry but, the tears, I couldn’t stop them.”
He went to Mass the next morning and asked the priest how he could learn more about Jesus. He was encouraged to join the young adult group but first had to attend his court hearing. He faced six years behind bars. He pled guilty to the assault of the officer. When the sentencing came, Mr. Torres closed his eyes and began talking to Jesus, again, he said.
“I’m looking for you,” Mr. Torres prayed. “I’m going to buy a Bible and I’m going to learn more about you and I’m going to tell the people who you are. But please, don’t let me be in jail. And then, they dropped the charges.”
He had to complete community service, but he saw the judge’s mercy as a sign. Mr. Torres began working with drug addicts, gang members, prison inmates and people experiencing homelessness in 2003. The Fuerza Transformadora meetings were filled with Bible readings and his own testimony, which the listeners enjoyed, but the local churches did not. The churches would not let the groups meet in their spaces, so Fuerza Transformadora groups met in parking lots, parks and, for awhile, a police station.
The community was upset about the new faces at church. They complained to church leaders, he said, saying the newcomers dressed like gang members, that they were liars plotting something evil against the church or that they were selling drugs to the youth.
But Mr. Torres kept quiet and kept pushing, driven by the message of Matthew 25: “Whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.”
“I just wanted to pay Jesus back for what he did for me,” he said.
Priests in Arkansas began warming to the idea of his work. Bishop Anthony Basil Taylor of the Diocese of Little Rock brought Fuerza Transformadora to the attention of Catholic Extension, a Chicago-based evangelization effort that provides support and services to 90 U.S. dioceses. At the same time, a gathering of bishops discussed needing to do more outreach work to at-risk populations. The group was bolstered by the findings of a joint study by Boston College and Georgetown University on a quarter of all U.S. parishes, which found that just four percent of parishes have outreach programs for Hispanic youth in gangs.
When members of Catholic Extension visited Fuerza Transformadora, about 500 people were active in the program “with amazing success,” said Joe Boland, vice president of mission.
“The stories are just absolutely incredible,” he said. “[Fuerza Transformadora] combines Catholic faith and Catholic spirituality with the tools of Narcotics Anonymous or Alcoholics Anonymous.… It’s a faith group and it’s a spiritual group to help people get through some of the most difficult times in their life.”
Since 2014, Catholic Extension has helped Mr. Torres bring Fuerza Transformadora to parishes across the country. Member dioceses can apply for a three-year grant to implement Fuerza Transformadora, which includes training, consultation with Mr. Torres and assistance creating a retreat for members. Beyond Little Rock, the Fuerza Transformadora program has taken root in Fresno, Calif., and Yakima, Wash. Catholic Extension plans to bring the program to two more dioceses in the first half of 2017, Mr. Boland said.